I'd like to have the possibility do live forever, but only if I could end my life whenever I want to. Without that I'd probably go insane, an endless life (doesn't matter where, here or in any paradise that some people believe in) without possibility to end it yourself would be the same as hell; the most terrible thing ever. Living in a paradise would even be worse, because being "happy" all the time (to have / know everything etc.) is a guarantee to be unhappy in the end and / or in the long run. Being happy isn't more then some chemicals in your brain, and they need certain highlights to be "activated". A status that doesn't change makes you always unhappy, no matter if the status is "good" or "bad". So there isn't much difference between hell and heaven, they both would be horrible