If you suffer from depression, then I am really, truly sorry. That disease fucking sucks.
I realize that "just going to therapy" is not the walk in the park some people make it out to be, especially if you are suffering, but there definitely, absolutely is a use to that.

You've said that you've tried for fifteen years, so I'm not gonna pretend I know better than you do - I take it then you have tried several therapists (not just one) and forms of therapy, medication (again, not just one), and all the other things that seem to help (from meditation and mindfulness to exercise and volunteering)? If not- well, it'd be great if you tried it. Who knows, it might make things a tiny bit better (or even quite a lot).

If you are thinking about killing yourself now, then please call 1-800-273-8255 (TALK) (in the US) and you'll get someone who, unlike me, actually knows what they're talking about, AND who is able to answer and just listen live, which is just a tremendous help. If you'd prefer chat, the link is here.

Of course, if you prefer, you can keep posting and I'll reply as soon as I'm able to. laugh Just wanted to give a heads up that I am far from a "professional" - as in, I don't know what it's like. And, well, due to time zones, I guess there's always gonna be a delay. But I will reply. You can also PM me if you prefer.

All the best to you!

Perhaps this post will get me points for originality at least.

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