Hi,
Your friend Mal here.

So when I final get drunk enough and kill myself , I will leave a message to reg at this forum and ask in this thread about me. What will you say to those that gave a damn to ask. That's not a question. In fact this seems a notice. I have love'd those here, why else spent the majority of my life and free time here.

Fear not, I am making future plans ( passed behavior is the best predictor of future behavior/goals)
I will be will with you longer still, but this is my mind.
Mal