I'm sorry to hear your situation, Maik. Although I have not been through the same, I can image the shock, pain, and lose that you are feeling.

I believe that it is important for you to work through these feelings so that you can show your children the strength and confidence as a father that they expect from you. It is not toys, books, games that they need. It is the sense of security and caring that a parent gives freely.

Reach out to those around you that can provide you support during this time and help you re-build.

As for bringing it to the forum, everyone needs to be able to vent their frustration and to know that other people are listening. Speaking for myself, I am listening.